Dogs....

hmmmm..
ran into a dog not to long ago...
waht...!!!
he whas fine...cud dance...cud rap...produces...directs...
mehn..i'd hit that!!...
but kiDd.....
we whas haven some crazii convos.....
I MEAN EXPLICIT CONVOSZ...
but he kinda took me out ma element..
im not realli inot the talk...
i just do..
but i dont!!..lol
sent kid explicit pix...explicit text messages..emails...
all tha good stuff...
this has been goin on 4 like 2 weeks...
come to find out..this niga got a girl!!!

"SENIOR SKIP DAII"

I guesz 2daii is senior skip day..
its not even for seniors anymore....
ITS FRESHMAN...SOPHOMORE...JUNIOR..SENIOR SKIP DAY...
its ridiculous...
why go to seaside during skoo...
wehn uy can go after!!...??

mAMa iS CRAZii!!

iT WHAS RIDIKCULOUSLii hott yesterdaii..
im sittin on the porch wihd ma twin sister!!
She tlken bout sit outside...im like lets go inside..
ma house is cold...its like uy step outside uy get summer..
uy go in the house uy get winter...
so she like lets walk around
((mind uy))...im sick...so i go walk around..
we ended up at ma best friend byrons house....
DHISZ NIGA MOM PULLED UP TLKEN BOUT NUTHIN..
IT WHAS SO FUNNY..
SHE IS HILARIOUS!!!
ND SHE CALLED ME CRAZII....
WEHN SHE LEFT BYRON THOUGHT IT WHAS CUTE TO START A FIGHT...
SO HE THROWS THIS BAG AT MA HEAD AND PUNCHED ME...
SO I BEAT HIS ASH!!!!...WHA HE WHAS ON THE FLOOR!!!
LOL.......
IT WHAS FUNNY!!!

Moments in my life that makes me who I am today..

*When I was 9, I was molested by the family friend.
((Thas the reason why I am so careful wihd ppl i meet...Like im cool and open...but I dont trust people easily...than again...it just made me look at guys differently))

*When I was little...I hit a corner of a wooden bed and put a hole in my head.
((Tha just made even crazier..cz at the moment i cried...i think back on iht..nd say ive done crazier...nd still can.....))

*When I was in the 4th grade my father walked out on me and my brother crying on the stairs for him to stay.
((Honeslty..after that I never really took anything serious but DANCE...hes in my life..but I dont believe everything i hear...I now think 90% of grown ups are liars...nd dont care about teenagers))

*When I was in the 6th grade I had my first fight.
((After that I became bad..I was the daughter from hell..there wasnt nothing i didnt do((but have sex and drink))...i nver did tha...but i did everything else...

*When I was 14 I thought I was grown and was sneaking out the house smoking with older guys..sleeping over there houses...staying out laet...having brothers fight over me.
((I look back on that...and shake ma head in shame...i knew better than tha...but i whas being hott and fast...thought i whas cute lien..thas wehn i whas doin things of the devil..lol....I am of the lord now. I dont sin((lies...))...lol

*When I was 15 I moved in with my father because my mother didnt want me.
((THAT WHAS THE WORST!!,it whas ckoo at first but then wehn ppl started lien on me...nd his wife didnt like me ....i felt uncomfortable..i cried to come back home...i cried and said i'd change...i wont be the same..ill never come back to this man!!....ever since then..i am changed...nd till this day i wouldnt dare ask to live wihd him!!

*When I was 15 I lost my virginty.
((The wrong thing i could ever do. I wish i could take iht back...but hey this what i say{{NEVER REGRET SUMTHIN CZ AT THAT TIME UY WANTED IHT}}...its not tru thou...cz wehn i let iht happen..i didnt want iht...ppl say thas rape...but i never said no...then again i think back i did say stop...i almost cried atualli...its tha considered rape??))

*During my sophomore year, I BECAME A CHEERLEADER..and my friend that was a bahd influence on me...i stopped talkin to her and stayed wiht the cheerleaders..nd she became jealous..
((Tha was crazy...one of the cheerleaders had a boyfriend she liked...she kissed him and everything....i told my friend..im tellin his girl..cz thas wrong he shuda never kissed uy back...uy both are wrong....thas became a huge drama.....girls wanted to fight...fight eachother...fight me!!!....mehn...thas y i HATE girls now!!))

*((THERES OTHER CRAZY THINGS THA HAPPENED IN MY LIFE...TO EXPLICIT TO SAY...TO PRIVATE...IF UY FEEL UYR READY 4 THA...COMMENT ND LEMME KNOW...I'LL PUT IHT UP!!!))



THIS IS ONLI THE BEGINNING...!

PPL THAS "ALWAYS RIGHT"

PPL WHO THINK THERE ALWAYS RIGHT.....((ARE NOT!!))

They argue wihd uy till uy get tired of even talken...
i honestly like to argue..
but not a serious arguement..
i like stupid arguements...tha cant do nuttin but make me laff....
i hate arguin seriousli...it always turns out bahd..
thas y i dont do good wihd ppl who always think there right...


MA MOM...OMFG....SHE IS THE TOP SMART ASH!!
SHE ALWAYS THINK SHE RIGHT..
AT THAT SHE SCREAMS...
I HATE THAT!!
SHE TRIES TO LOOK AT HERSELF AS THE VICTIM..
I HONESTLY DONT LIKE BEIN IN PUBLIC WIHD HER...!!

BUT THAS MA MAMA...GOTA LUHV HER....((sometimes))

4th Period...Enviromental Science....

I whas in E.S...nd i whas sittin nex to ma homeboy(((brother))
He is tha typa dude..where he sware he is always right..((when hes not))
Im like dumb sick at this moment...
((HEADACHE...CLOGGED NOSE..CLOSING THROAT...BACK HURTS...FACE BREAKING OUT...))
i WHAS LIKE O00OOH MA BOI SAID IM NOT SICK I HAVE ALLERGIESZ...
ND IM LIKE I DNT HAVE ALLERGIES...ND I NEVER WILL...
HE GOT THE NERVE TO TELL ME I HAVE ALLERGIES..
IM LIKE...UHHH...UY MIGHT BUT I DONT...
IVE BEEN IN MA BODY SINCE THE NINE MONTHS MA MOMA CARRIED ME..
I THINK I WUD NOE IF ITS ALLERGIES..
MIND UY IVE BEEN LIKE THIS 4 TWO DAIISZ...
HE LIKE...((MA FAV. PART))[(EVERYBODII HAS ALLERGIES)]...
I LOOKED AT HIM LIKE HE WHAS A FAT MONKEY((HE'S FAT!!))
IM LIKE UHHH...JUST CZ UYR 18DOESNT MEAN UYR SMART...
((HES REALLI NOT))
THA AGGRAVATED ME SO BAHD!!
I STOPPED ALL THE CONVO WIHD HIM 4 DHA REST OF DHA CLASS....

Daily Intreview 5-20-09

1. When I woke up this morning what was the first thing i thought of?

Well.I didnt wake up in my bed cause i was atmy cousins house.i went to sleepa round 1:40 & wake up around 5:30, then wakuup around 6. mY NOSE was clogged, it was hott,i wanted to be in my own bed.my own mattress. That's what xactly i thought.

2. Am I in a relationshoip? ((if not why??))

No im not in a relationship.I was last week but I ended that because i cant date someone illegally or fall the wrong reasons!! I have to be with someone by how i feel about the,. I like them....not 4 what they have....i honestly havent seen a sweetheart yet...but then again..the way im shaped i only attract jerks!!

3.What is the craziest thing Ive done?

WOW!!...THE QUESTION I DREAD TO ANSWER./...WELL IMA CRAZY PERSON IVE DONE MANY CRAZY THINGS TO BE ONLY 16. Ive sent people to jail, put a hole in my forehead...brushedmy teeth with tilex((cleaner)) and toothpaste((accident))...Ive had brothers fight over me, Ive had mamother call the cops on me...Ive ran away..Ive thrown chairs...fought bouys..strangled my brother...put a cell phone in the microwave to dry it and almost blew up the house....ive threatened people...MEHN I DONT EVEN HAVE ONE CRAZY THING..I HAVE ABOUT 11....LMFAO..

Daily interview 5-19-09

1. When are you most alert morning or night?
Well, Honestly Im mostly alert at night. Im a night person. But I fall asleep early. During the day, uy can catch me sleeping. But the moment 9 hits...Im up and on the go...((dont ask where))

2. What is you favorite thing to eat; vegetables, meat, or equal amounts of both
Well..meat is the ish!! Veggies.....eyy...not really feelin iht..!!

3. Do you prefer to be inside or outside?
INSIDE!!!...OUtside is full of weird guys nd germs. Im not germophobic or anything..but its just disgusting...lol...nd the guys that try to tlk to me scare me so i rather stay home ...like 4 ppl to come to my house!!

6. Would you consider yourself as a quiet, calm person or an active person?
It depends on what mood im in....usually im like listenin to music in my room layin on the bed tetxin..if not....im wihd my 2 best friends buggen out!!....cz wehn im wihd dhem im a whole nother person!!!lol

7. Would you rather be by yourself or with lots of other people?
I dont mind bein by myself!!...Bein by maself is wehn i can think the most..nd figure maself out!! but then again wehn im wihd other ppl all uy see is a smile on ma face...lol

9. What do you do when you get angry? Example: shout, hit, stomp, go off by yourself
When I get angry...i listen to music...text...and say EVERY cuss word in the book!!..lol...music calms me down...and i dont kno y i cuss like a sailor but i do...thas y i like to be alone...cz im easily annoyed and angered..

Do you have any interesting habits? If so please list them (Examples mi lite...ght be suck on a finger, twirl hair, roll tongue, double jointed)

Suck my thumb..Bothering people...yelling out of nowhere..doubled jointed...bustin out of nowhere gettin...saying random things.....ND THE THING THA DEFINES ME...DOIN STUPID ISH

10. Have You ever been in love?

Well...wehn i think back on iht..luhv whas jus a word i through around. But I was in luhv wihd dhisz one dude named angel....and man...he whas freakin pyscho!! He didnt want me doin anything..nd im tha typa person where i do wha i wehn and say what i please....so tha ended after 2 yrs...

11. What are the last 4 digits in your cellphone number?
1261.....

12. What is the first thing u notice in the opposite sex?

The firt thing i notice in a dude is lips and there style. If uy got a nice style ima look like dang kiDd got fashion sense...Taught him well...lmfao....((j.p))...and i luhv lips on a guy....omfg...jus havin the nice lips drive me crazy!!..

13. 3 THINGS YOU CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT?

I cant live without my phone...uy take my phone away...i feel empty!!..Also FOOD...omg...its ridiculous how much i eat..i eat 9 times a day..i'll eat b4 skcoo...during skcoo...after sckoo....2 hrs after i eat....eat at 6...i leave come baq at 8 eat again....eat b4 9..lay down...have ma brother cok 4 me around 10...thas how much i eat...which is crazy..cz i used to eat onli 2 meals a day!!!
2 FREAKIN MEALS!..thas bcz im thick and i hate the attention..so i tried to lose it..the less i ate...the more thick i got...i only weigh 123 now....((ugh...))...I cant live wihdout muisc...music is me!!...i am MUSIC!!...lol

14. WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF?

SPIDERS!!..I sware ma fear for spiders is like no other....I promise uy i can spot a spider from a mile away..it'll be the size of a dot....and i can see it in the corner of the room...nd i'll leave till uy kill it.i cry cz ma mom makes me go into the basement...ppl find it cute..wehn they see ma reaction..but i call iht abuse!!
lol

15. WHAT ARE THE THINGS YOU ALWAYS TAKE WITH YOU?
Ill take my mp3..nd a pack of batteries...CANNED FOOD...A MATCH...!!..LOL...MY CELL PHONE...MY 3 BEST FRIENDS....and ma common sense..cz i tend to leave that around..lol

16. WHat gets you going?((Turns uy on/..))

Well...what turns me on..is a kiss...if a guy can kiss me like no other dude kissed me b4....it turns on eveyr light switch on in my body!!....Tha happened to me once...i almost gave iht up...but im NOT stupid...hadda stop maself...lol....Like game on a dude...if the dude can spit game...he got me...!!((but he dont got iht!!))..hmmmm...wha else.....hair....!!...hair!!....hair...!!!....ugh....omfg....lol....well....thas all the questions 4 daily interview 5-19-09...

ALL WHITE AFFAIR ((DRAMA))...LOL

So Im having a All White Affair for my birthday right....
Its mega stressful!!
I never thought planning something would be like this
I had one for my sixteen bdaii...THA ONE HAD ME N TEARSZ...
its bahd cz im plannin by maself!!!!!
But this year I whas smat i started early...
I started plannin now and my concert is in Sept!!
It whasnt gna turn out like last years....!!
Last years......hmmm....ppl say they ha fun!!
But to me it whas like a joke!!
I didnt like how it turned out!!
This year is going to be the last year
I do something before I leave to audition for ((SO UY THINK UY CAN DANCE SEASON7))
BUT HEY.....I KNO THIS ONE IS GNA TURN OUT THE BEST EVER!!

The World((Poem))

WHY?? do you really want to hate??
No,not to me..u sey u wanna die,but death is not ur fate
listen to me...brighten OH PLEASE..
READING ya poems seeing how hurt ya'll be
the cuttin,smokin,drinken,and dien
its to much jus rethink wha your seyin
Your life mite not be all tha good
but luq where i grew up the fucken ghetto the hood
yeah ma life is pretty fine i guess
but dnt want to die dnt even confess
what ur goin thru...therez a reason
your life is like the seasons
it changes from one to another every year
I dnt want chall to live in fear
Put the knife down i say
makin ya self bleed aint good day by day
just please listen to me
u can even talk to me
i prolli went thru everythin
everythin your facen
im here u mite not kno me
but remeber im the girl u can trust
dont be afraid.....but the last thin i an say is

THE WORLD??

whas up with the world these days
the kids n teens cant behave
the crackin jokes...and the hurtful words
the hoes and birds
the cancer sticks and the pills
the drugs and the bottles
the anxeric pretty models
the dieases bein passed around
the new illnesses bein found
the hell ad the heaven
huh,......THE WORLD??

(life is a confusing place,everybody wants to be mad at sumone so they go to god...if you give him all your problems...by know time your life will be changed...you might not beleave n him...im not tellin you too....if you want life to be so much easier...GIVE IT GOD...)

The world is changing((Poem))

Everyday I wonder and think
How much am I missing with every blink

Is the world spinning so fast
Or is it the time to forget the past

‘Cause with every spin
There were happiness and moments that stood still

Many questions poured everyday into my head
Why don't the people care who is alive and who is dead

Why don't they open their eyes and see
That the world is changing while they are sitting in front of the TV

I guess we are drowning in our desires
Without knowing that there are some countries that are still on fireLife

When it rains((Poem))

If it rains...
everything slows down..
it seems i can see every drop of rain..
hit the ground..
it feels im renewed...
im clean...
When Im sad..
I sit in the rain because Uy can see if im crying..
the rain hides ma tears....
When the rain hits...
ma depression is gone...

My place is officially taken((Poem))

When my people are with your people..I stare at you>>!!
Of course you dont notice,but deeply im wishing uy were ma boo..
I like uy but uy didnt know,but when i told uy
uy were messing wit sumbodii already..
mad..whas i,hurt..deeply,over it...nope but have no choice...
Now I hate to write u on myspace,or talk 2 uy
now I feel tha Im bothering uy,or Im in uyr way...
Will I get over uy..of course but no time soon...
is it fair nope but wha can i do but move on....
As I read uyr comments bout her...
nd see the glow in uyr eyes...
the smile she put on uyr face....
the warmth she put in uyr hurt..
I think hard..bout maybe how she whs mad 4 uy nd I wasnt...
so0oo now...
my place is officially taken...

Music is the best impact on my life!!

I freakin Luhv music!!
Think about it who doesnt....??
If it wasnt for music I wouldnt be who I am today.
If it wasnt for music I'd be in jail!!
If it wasnt for music I'd be on the street.
If it wasnt for music my mom and dad wouldnt have made me...lol....((ilk...t.m.i))
Music has done great things for me!!

Music has kept me out of trouble......MUSIC calms me down...cuase my temper is VERY bad...Music stops me from crying....Music keeps me on the house..Music keeps my brain pumping with the will to learn...Music is the ((ISH]]....depending on what type of music you listen to it has a HUGE impact on you....Like for instant::

IF YOU LISTENIN TO THAT luhv maken music..
its going to make you want do what you not pose 2 do!!

IF YOU LISTENIN TO THAT hood music..
its going to make you want to kill someone...or sell drugs or smoke or try and drink...

IF YOU LISTENIN TO THAT money maken music..
you going to want to make music

IF YOU LISTENIN TO THAT girls look a certain typa way...
certain girls going to dress a certain typa way...or try to look a certain way....

If YOU LISTENIN TO THAT sad music...
you going to want to cry..

IF YOU LISTENIN TO THAT love music..
you going to want to love someone....


MUSIC HAS CRAZY WAYS TO GETTING TO PEOPLE!!!

CZ IT SURE NUFF GETS TO ME!!

Types of girls I hate!!

I cant stand a girl that sware they hot...but they not!!..Its aggravaten when they walking around like the stuff dont stink. It be funny cause they be the undercover hoe. Every guy want them to see how good they boy said they really are. not becuase she "pretty" or she "fly"!!

The girls that try to play innocent and they really do nothing but start trouble. They walk around like they good and what not but they do nothing but gossip, talk [ISH))...and bully people.

Girls to me period is stupid!!
I honestly dont know how guys put up with us??
ALL THE ATTITUDE.....the drama.....etc......!!


if you ask Every girl you know...they'll say they are not faek. they not alot of trouble to handle..there the coolest girl ever. [(STRAIGHT B.S)].......

Ima girl and i say that...
but i keep to myself..
cz theres not one girl i know that i can trust..
theres not one person that showen me in the world i can trust them!!



I HATE TRIFILIN GIRLS!!

lmfao

Types of guys!!

The player- A player is the type of guy that loves girls but cant show it. Loves sleeping with them, and leaving them. They like having more than one girl at a time and thinks it cool it brag about it to ALL there friends.

The Guy Girl- The guy girl is the type of guy that runs his mouth like he's a girl. He gossips, knows everybody's business and tells everybody's business. He's not gay!! But he just doesnt know how to keep his mouth closed. Also he shouldnt be trusted. But also good to be cool with cause you get all the juice

The Gangster- The gangster is the type of guy that doesnt care about what anybody thinks and does what he feels. He speaks his mind at all times. He beats on his women. He fights when he pleases. And if you dont respect him he'll hate you for life.

The Sweeheart- The sweetheart is the type of guy all girls want but dont no where to find him. Most sweethearts are in the "out crowd" most people would say. Have you ever heard the saying "They cute guys are the assholes and the ugly guys are the sweetheart"well....its true!! They know how to meet your needs but never really given a chance.

The Asshole- A guy who plays jokes on girls or anybody. He laughs at his own jokes. nobody really is fond of the asshole but his friends. The asshole is most likely to be a jock...either a basketball player, football player, a laccrosse...he plays a sport. He says what he wants becaust he feels because he's a jock he has to be respected!!

The Silent Guy- He's quiet. Nobody really notices him. Every school has one of these...he walks around without being noticed. and when he is noticed he's picked on....the silent guy is the guy who everyone underestimates. but he is very smart so watch out because he may be plotting on you.

The Prettyboy- He's always fresh. Always has the new gear. He's clean mostly all the girls thinks he cute. Mostly all the girls had sex with him. He's used to getting things he wants when he wants it. Doesnt really ask for girls to have sex with him....cause it usually thrown aT THEM. there cool with everybody..But they have them sneaky hating poeple lerking around them.

The Geek- I havent really seen a geek. But there the smart type. I havent heard of a geek getting bullied. But they have very few friends. but asked to do homework by most people.

((I think i got them all if not....let me know!!.....))